My name is CourtneyDANIELLE,
but I am also known by my spiritual name (and pseudonym), Rayne Storm.
I am an Author, Illustrator and Earth-based Spiritualist with Yggdrasil Roots.
I am distinctly me. I am a limited edition.
I am a highly-sensitive, intuitive empath.
I am a six-time internationally published new-age author n' illustrator.
I am a shinning light for those looking for a little guidance -in one form or another.
I have an abundance of inspired creativity flowing through my writing, my artwork and my numerous endeavors; from my crafts to my quilts.
ESYR (pronounced: es-er), stands for Earth-based Spiritual-ist/-ism with Yggdrasil Roots. ESYR originated about a decade ago, and is a creation of my own. It is the combination of: Quantum Spirituality -the Universal Principles (e.g. LOA), the core foundation of Earthing -tapping into the Earth's Natural Energies and Earth Medicine, and a hodgepodge of ideologies that led me to believe that the Norse Pantheon was more Ancestry than Mythology.
It's not about bowing down before God(s), but respecting them as kith and kin. It's not about being perfect, it's about learning to better our lives. It's not about asking for forgiveness, it's about doing - doing the right thing and making wise choices, taking responsibility for our actions and doing what we can to correct them.
It's about feeling the energy around you. It's about seeing, knowing, feeling, and realizing that we are ALL connected...people, plants, animals, stones, objects. It's about having an open-minded approach to the idea that many of us have lived multiple lives... and some of us in other star systems.
It's about acknowledging the Spiritual Beings that we are, and fully embracing our Human Experience.
To Help others on their journey through life with my own life experiences; my struggles with depression, being a stay at home mom for fifteen years, and my need to start over at 40.
To Guide others through life with inspiration, encouragement and positivity. With tips and suggestions for health n' well being, for hearth n' home, and for holding on to hope -having faith.
To Share with others recipes, patterns, ideas, remedies, tutorials, product and book reviews. To share, with others, through my seemingly-limitless amount of creativity.
I create. That's what I do.
I create imagery with my words,
emotions with my art,
and inspiration from my various projects.
I create everything with Love n' Light.
I do so with the purpose of:
helping, teaching, healing, and bringing joy to others.
I create to bring awareness, to provide guidance,
and to encourage the POSSIBLE in IMPOSSIBLE.
'I am not who I once was... I've changed a few times since then.'
(an adaptation from a quote in 'Alice in Wonderland')
I once was a little girl who found solace in the woods, sitting atop my favorite giant rock talking to the animals, the trees... and anything that would listen.
But, by the age of 14, my life took on a dramatic and dark plot twist... that's when I was first diagnosed with depression. I left home at 16, shortly after my uncle tried to molest me... my aunt shunned me and the rest of the family swept it under the rug -with a lot of other secrets I would learn about later on.
By the time I was 18, I had been raped, I had spent nearly a year in a physically abusive relationship before managing to get away. Following that, and to my mother's delight, I would spend 72 hours in observation at the Psychiatric Hospital. For letting slip the wrong words in an empty threat, during a heated argument.
By twenty, I had met a man at college who was twice my age, and we married and had two boys. After a few years, I knew I wasn't happy, but I didn't want to be a disappointment and get divorced. But the years went on and I couldn't do it anymore. I felt like I was trapped behind glass and slowly suffocating to death. So we agreed to "co-parent" -needless to say, for my situation, that only made things worse.
Finally after 15 years of a love-less marriage, that should never have made it beyond 5 years, I left -to be with another man. At the time, I believed I had made the right choice, I hadn't been this happy in over a decade. But alas, it failed. And feeling like I had no options left... rented an apartment from my ex-husband.
There are many days I feel very much alone and vulnerable. I feel like I am a failure and I am back where I started nearly twenty years earlier. I just want to move on but... BUT... BUT then there was COVID. ugh! Need I say more. However, for as much as I hate this pandemic, it has also been a blessing. It has helped me (forced me) to get my shit together. To get rid of the trash in my life... people, things, thoughts... ect. And to find focus on what is truly important to me -like me... and my boys.
Of course, all of that would be enough for one person, but my story is full of twists, turns and pits of despair....
At the time I was turning thirty, I found myself suddenly blind in my left eye. Weeks later I was diagnosed with Optic Neuritis and told that I was susceptible to being diagnosed with MS (Multiple Sclerosis).
However, for almost a decade it was in stasis -shall we say. But It would seem that over the course of the last few months -I have been far more stressed out than I had thought... and it would seem I have triggered some unusual symptoms -especially for someone as fit and healthy as myself.
Although I do not have a confirmed diagnosis from a neurologist, as of yet, the test results and symptoms are hard to ignore. However, I am taking my own aggressive action to counteract whatever it may be. I didn't let Optic Neuritis take me down, and neither will this. Besides, I have far too much to do before I'm done. There are books to write, paintings to paint, quilts to create and miles to run.
Having just turned 40 and for the first time ever - I am truly on my own... I am starting from scratch... and starting over... healing traumas... and discovering who I am. I have no idea what's next -but I'm staying strong and optimistic that things are going to get better! A whole lot better! (2020)
Personal photo of CourtneyDANIELLE. 2018.
Flower photo by: CourtneyDANIELLE. Flowering Bush. Canton, NY. Spring 2020.
Cat photo by: CourtneyDANIELLE. Her name is Pocahontas. Summer 2016.
Meadow photo by: CourtneyDANIELLE. Field of cows in a morning mist. Canton, NY. Autumn 2016.
Bridge photo by: CourtneyDANIELLE. Heritage Park, Canton, NY. Summer 2016.
page was updated on September 2020